absence

[Kirsui]

Hello everyone.

Thought I'd drop a "little" note here explaining my absence, seeing as how I dropped out of existence without saying anything (again).

I was having some life issues at the beginning of this year, and I've spent the past months trying to sort myself out. A few of you may know the extent of what I was going through, but over all it's not something I've spread around a lot even to people that are close to me IRL. Shortly said, I was having problems concentrating on pretty much anything, up to the point when I got up in the morning and realised hours later that I hadn't done anything, not even things I normally enjoy doing. Eventually it got to the point where it began interfering with my memory and perception of time. Those in turn affected my studies, and when I finally realised this I went and talked with a few people about the whole mess that my life seemed to have become. We came to the conclusion that it may have been mostly due to some stress caused by a course that I had some trouble with last year, and again this year when I tried to get it done due to having had to drop it a year before. Though, to be perfectly honest, I'm still not certain if that was what was causing everything, or if it was just one part of a bigger mess, since I don't even really know when exactly my problems began.

Another thing that I noticed during the past few months is that I seem to have grown tired of any kind of social media. If you know me at facebook you may have noticed that I've pretty much dropped out of there already (that site's been an annoyance to me for several years now though, so dropping out of there wasn't even a difficult decision). I also seem to have grown a rather large dislike towards Skype, to the point when logging in has become a chore that I do not enjoy despite the fact that there are people on my Skype contacts that I like chatting with. Still, since using it was making me feel worse rather than better, I'm no longer using that for anything but the occasional calls I might have to make for university work or to my relatives.

While I believe most of my troubles have passed (I did manage to finish what I had to do for that course after a few talks with my teacher), I'm still having some problems focusing on doing any writing for the few things still left to do for my masters degree at uni. We had a painting project with a few people from uni, and that seems to have helped my overall mental well-being quite a bit (we've got an exhibition currently going on at uni, in fact), and I'm finally back to doing at least something when I'm at home instead of just sitting and doing nothing. I still experience some trouble remembering to do things, especially if I don't write them down or complete them instantly, but this is something I've been occasionally struggling with for the past few years whenever I've been more stressed than usually.

So, with that said, I am not sure when I'll be making a full return to TLKGO. Right now it doesn't feel good to check the forum and to keep up with things (despite of how much I love this site), and as such I'm somewhat avoiding being online at all. <_<

So, yes... I'm taking an extended break, it seems, until I feel comfortable becoming active again. I might post something in the freestyle RP section, occasionally, maybe, but I'm afraid I'll avoid the rest of the forum for the time being. In the mean time, if you're on Steam you can catch me there most of the time since I use it to chat with my IRL friends. I'm also semi-active on tumblr, so you may poke me with a message there as well (though don't expect me to respond right away, I might not be online there as much).

That said, I wish you all a very good spring, and I hope I'll see you around sometime, someplace. :3


Lastly, I'd like to apologise to Leorgathar for failing so epicly in submitting my part of the Secret Santa (doubly so since I was the one running it). I haven't forgotten you. Every time I boot up my laptop where your drawing is I seem to forget I need to post it. x.x Terribly sorry about that. :c I'll try to remember to dig it up soon.

[Leorgathar]

Aww Kir I'm sorry to hear you're going through that kind of stress. I guess constantly catching up with social media and balancing it with real life issues can become overwhelming. It's perfectly understandable that you're keeping some distance from internet to focus on your well-being and your career.

I sometimes wonder what friends that I haven't talked to in a while have been up to, as I have with you, but no matter how much time it passes you'll always be welcome around here Take all the time you need to focus on yourself, life always comes first after all, but it'll always be nice to hear from you whenever you decide to pop up to say hi, like you just did. I hope you can sort things out over there and reduce your stress eventually.

About the Secret Santa drawing, I'm very chill about it, so really, don't worry. I appreciate that you still have it in mind, though

[Lyonize]

Hey, Kir. We've missed you around here. I can definitely understand the deal with facebook. I'm hardly ever on facebook any more either. I can also understand the lack of motivation in general. It'll all come back eventually. I think we all go through extended periods where we just cant seem to be bothered to make an effort to do anything or be socially active. But whenever you feel like staring at a big orange screen, we're always around.

I'll be sure to drop you a message on steam here and there to see how you're doing if that's alright.

[Kirsui]

Thank you both. Really made me smile reading both of your comments. I'll be sure to try and hang around again when I feel like it. xP

[Tamber]

Hi Kir, it's good to see you again. I'm sorry to hear about all of your difficulties. I wish you all the strength you need to get through this time, and I understand that hectic times often call for hiatuses from online circles.

I'm thinking of you, and I'm hoping for happier days ahead <3