Post by leviarajasmine on Nov 2, 2015 4:41:11 GMT
(In Character)
**A nearly totally blind Lioness wanders about as its late evening, its very cool, overcast feeling light cold rain, occasionally twilight as the moon shows between the dense darkly grey low clouds... Feels the ground as I tap my lioness paw's tensely as I thump my lioness tail as well in a near circle, sensing my surroundings, my lioness senses all lit up as my right eye completely blind silver/blued over with slight transparency of its color but no sight, and my left eye only dimly seeing as its blind nearly, but not quite, as it has only 40% sight.. My left lioness eye green, emerald green with hints of deep ultramarine blue splashed, quite beautiful...my lioness pelt, nothing special really to look at, just pale tan and off white undersides, my body scarred up from frequent accidents, from losing balance with my self, or running into things, often from lack of coordination from severe balance issues... though now I'm a bit better at it, than when I was very young. Knowing that I was born with No Claws, as it makes gripping anything very difficult, so I feel my way carefully as I smell and hear this huge place, then I dimly seeing it lit up, I very very very slowly slide into the entry way, through my left lioness eye, seeing shapes rather blurred, yet somewhat discernable..I move along close to the ground not quite crawling, but keeping a very low profile, feeling very vulnerable, as I quietly enter, smelling the traces of others, Lionesses, Lions and so on....**
**Now switching to tail thumping and paw patting on the ground, as to send sound waves to bounce off anything that might be near me, a form of "lioness sonar".. I feel along the ground with paws out tapping, patting, feeling up along the wall's, now I'm hearing a heater kick in with it usual humming, the warmth feeling so good as I'm near a vent feeling it rush out, to my thin sore starved lioness body, as by my age now I should weigh in at 170 to 200+ pounds, but I only weigh 80 pounds if I'm lucky, as I havent eaten in a very very long time, only drinking water to keep alive.. As I had travelled 9 months through mountains, hills, valleys, on my own to find it here...I then hear voices, of others in the distance, I keep low and very quiet as not to draw any attention unnecessarily to me, as I try to get my bearings, I'm now to a point I need to rest..
So I lay down quietly,on my side near a heater vent, my side rather sore from bones poking out painfully from being so starved.. I rest as I keep my left eye fully open,to see and wait for other's to find me.. wondering how it will be after such a long time of social isolation, as my mother left for no reason when I was just a month old, then at 5 months old my father lion was taken by the (two legged-upright walking creatures) as he was carted off in a large box by force, as it had long bars all around it, I hid as i was too small to fight back.... I then was alone for this time, till now..surviving by a miracle.. Now i sit and wait as I will hope to be loved and cared about, and helped, but I hope I'm not too much of a burden or bother to others(thinking to my self), I need and want a mommy lion, so badly even several I just want to feel loved, as I feel so alone inside, cold, desolate, sad and empty, I never knew why my mom lion left me, for no reason..I blamed my self for it, to this day...maybe it was my fault, for being born blind in one eye and nearly completely in my left eye, and born without claws, maybe I was too flawed to her, undesirable I suppose I was to her..(thinking to my self)..**
SIC(Semi-in character) ok, IRL (in real life) I'm (Leviara Cleopah Jasmine) the first part of my first name Leviara is pronounced like the (Levi) blue jeans as... as I also go by Jasmine, Cleo, Cleopah, Levira, or Leviara, its what ever you want to call me, or you can make up youre own name for me, I really dont mind it!...Also I'm 13, I have long thick dark brown black hair mane, with waves and some curles, my skin is a very pale complexion, I'm tall'ish at 5'11" at only 87 pounds, yes I'm a little bit thin, or as some call it "twiggy", but I have health issues, I'm very often ill and in bed resting, I'm home schooled when I'm up to it...My eyes are vividly green blue eyes, yeah I'm actually blind in my right eye fully, and 60% blind in my left, as is my lioness character, this's why I'm using bold/Italic type, it makes it easier to see and read and do art work on my PC and Drawn too, which I'm quite good at, not to brag....as I dont like to arrogantly boorish, its not polite.
my IRL mom yes, she left me with no warning, when I was very young, my father adopted me as mom left me with him..life hasn't been easy, I havent seen my RL (real life) mom in over 10 years, I miss her soooooo much, I cry each night to sleep wondering about her, or what it might be like to have a RL (real life) mom to be with??.. I blame my self totally, but cannot find an answer to what i did to make her leave me, frustrates me to the point of roaring till I cannot, I get so darn angry over it!!.. socially, I'm very awkward, but I try hard, as I'm sweet, loving caring and like to help others in need, despite my horrible eye sight in my left eye..... For the record this's my IRL first TLK site I've joined (EVER) in my life, I've never been to Facebook, or Google sites, I'm only on Twitter and Blingee and PiZap, I'm loving it already here at TLKGO(The Lion King Goes On).. but do note if I stay in my cave here (Profile page often) tinkering with it, its cause I'm extremely shy, nervous and tense.. as I don't know how to put it best, I can only say I was ("abused severely") and physically too when very young till I was 12, or so after, this has left me very badly for sociability....I'm so frightened of being hurt "in that way", if you get my point?!
So my father IRL (in real life) he has been the best daddy lion you could ever ask for, but it doesnt make up for the mommy lion I need, so badly! He's not married, wants to be, but is still looking at this time....also mentally I have defects, I didnt quite mature in my mind therefor which makes me, hmmm whats a good word for it? ehh very cubby like in the physical and mental in many ways.. which makes me feel so vulnerable and afraid to be hurt...You dont know this, but I had this TLKGO on my PC Fave's for some time, but I was so afraid to join, you know?! I know I seem leik such a coward that way, but you have to see it from my perspective, after how I was hurt in "that way" and physically also too, I just wasnt sure if I could do it, its taken me 9 months to do this.. so this is a real achievement in my book. I'm gonna join to MLK (My Lion King) in a while or so, but I'm gonna take it easy here first, as i need to get used to this place first..I think it quite logical if you ask me, to go about it that way.... Well now, I guess you've gotten to see a fair amount about me.. oh, if you want to copy this kinda descriptive thing about me feel free, to keep it as a reference....Also I'm gonna draw my character and digitally make it great and make an avatar for me, unless someone wants to do it for me??! I'll do it then, so I can have a signature, a proper avatar, but the one I'm using will do quite fine, for now, I love the Nala kinda look, but I'm much more preferable to the Kiara type looks and lioness body type. Oh, I so do hope i wont be too much of a bother, really, due to my problems, and all mentioned??!
BIC(back in character)**Lays on my lioness side, looking and watching nervously for others to arrive, sweating quite a bit from anxiousness, trembling slightly, very nervously....hoping it will all be ok??!**
**A nearly totally blind Lioness wanders about as its late evening, its very cool, overcast feeling light cold rain, occasionally twilight as the moon shows between the dense darkly grey low clouds... Feels the ground as I tap my lioness paw's tensely as I thump my lioness tail as well in a near circle, sensing my surroundings, my lioness senses all lit up as my right eye completely blind silver/blued over with slight transparency of its color but no sight, and my left eye only dimly seeing as its blind nearly, but not quite, as it has only 40% sight.. My left lioness eye green, emerald green with hints of deep ultramarine blue splashed, quite beautiful...my lioness pelt, nothing special really to look at, just pale tan and off white undersides, my body scarred up from frequent accidents, from losing balance with my self, or running into things, often from lack of coordination from severe balance issues... though now I'm a bit better at it, than when I was very young. Knowing that I was born with No Claws, as it makes gripping anything very difficult, so I feel my way carefully as I smell and hear this huge place, then I dimly seeing it lit up, I very very very slowly slide into the entry way, through my left lioness eye, seeing shapes rather blurred, yet somewhat discernable..I move along close to the ground not quite crawling, but keeping a very low profile, feeling very vulnerable, as I quietly enter, smelling the traces of others, Lionesses, Lions and so on....**
**Now switching to tail thumping and paw patting on the ground, as to send sound waves to bounce off anything that might be near me, a form of "lioness sonar".. I feel along the ground with paws out tapping, patting, feeling up along the wall's, now I'm hearing a heater kick in with it usual humming, the warmth feeling so good as I'm near a vent feeling it rush out, to my thin sore starved lioness body, as by my age now I should weigh in at 170 to 200+ pounds, but I only weigh 80 pounds if I'm lucky, as I havent eaten in a very very long time, only drinking water to keep alive.. As I had travelled 9 months through mountains, hills, valleys, on my own to find it here...I then hear voices, of others in the distance, I keep low and very quiet as not to draw any attention unnecessarily to me, as I try to get my bearings, I'm now to a point I need to rest..
So I lay down quietly,on my side near a heater vent, my side rather sore from bones poking out painfully from being so starved.. I rest as I keep my left eye fully open,to see and wait for other's to find me.. wondering how it will be after such a long time of social isolation, as my mother left for no reason when I was just a month old, then at 5 months old my father lion was taken by the (two legged-upright walking creatures) as he was carted off in a large box by force, as it had long bars all around it, I hid as i was too small to fight back.... I then was alone for this time, till now..surviving by a miracle.. Now i sit and wait as I will hope to be loved and cared about, and helped, but I hope I'm not too much of a burden or bother to others(thinking to my self), I need and want a mommy lion, so badly even several I just want to feel loved, as I feel so alone inside, cold, desolate, sad and empty, I never knew why my mom lion left me, for no reason..I blamed my self for it, to this day...maybe it was my fault, for being born blind in one eye and nearly completely in my left eye, and born without claws, maybe I was too flawed to her, undesirable I suppose I was to her..(thinking to my self)..**
SIC(Semi-in character) ok, IRL (in real life) I'm (Leviara Cleopah Jasmine) the first part of my first name Leviara is pronounced like the (Levi) blue jeans as... as I also go by Jasmine, Cleo, Cleopah, Levira, or Leviara, its what ever you want to call me, or you can make up youre own name for me, I really dont mind it!...Also I'm 13, I have long thick dark brown black hair mane, with waves and some curles, my skin is a very pale complexion, I'm tall'ish at 5'11" at only 87 pounds, yes I'm a little bit thin, or as some call it "twiggy", but I have health issues, I'm very often ill and in bed resting, I'm home schooled when I'm up to it...My eyes are vividly green blue eyes, yeah I'm actually blind in my right eye fully, and 60% blind in my left, as is my lioness character, this's why I'm using bold/Italic type, it makes it easier to see and read and do art work on my PC and Drawn too, which I'm quite good at, not to brag....as I dont like to arrogantly boorish, its not polite.
my IRL mom yes, she left me with no warning, when I was very young, my father adopted me as mom left me with him..life hasn't been easy, I havent seen my RL (real life) mom in over 10 years, I miss her soooooo much, I cry each night to sleep wondering about her, or what it might be like to have a RL (real life) mom to be with??.. I blame my self totally, but cannot find an answer to what i did to make her leave me, frustrates me to the point of roaring till I cannot, I get so darn angry over it!!.. socially, I'm very awkward, but I try hard, as I'm sweet, loving caring and like to help others in need, despite my horrible eye sight in my left eye..... For the record this's my IRL first TLK site I've joined (EVER) in my life, I've never been to Facebook, or Google sites, I'm only on Twitter and Blingee and PiZap, I'm loving it already here at TLKGO(The Lion King Goes On).. but do note if I stay in my cave here (Profile page often) tinkering with it, its cause I'm extremely shy, nervous and tense.. as I don't know how to put it best, I can only say I was ("abused severely") and physically too when very young till I was 12, or so after, this has left me very badly for sociability....I'm so frightened of being hurt "in that way", if you get my point?!
So my father IRL (in real life) he has been the best daddy lion you could ever ask for, but it doesnt make up for the mommy lion I need, so badly! He's not married, wants to be, but is still looking at this time....also mentally I have defects, I didnt quite mature in my mind therefor which makes me, hmmm whats a good word for it? ehh very cubby like in the physical and mental in many ways.. which makes me feel so vulnerable and afraid to be hurt...You dont know this, but I had this TLKGO on my PC Fave's for some time, but I was so afraid to join, you know?! I know I seem leik such a coward that way, but you have to see it from my perspective, after how I was hurt in "that way" and physically also too, I just wasnt sure if I could do it, its taken me 9 months to do this.. so this is a real achievement in my book. I'm gonna join to MLK (My Lion King) in a while or so, but I'm gonna take it easy here first, as i need to get used to this place first..I think it quite logical if you ask me, to go about it that way.... Well now, I guess you've gotten to see a fair amount about me.. oh, if you want to copy this kinda descriptive thing about me feel free, to keep it as a reference....Also I'm gonna draw my character and digitally make it great and make an avatar for me, unless someone wants to do it for me??! I'll do it then, so I can have a signature, a proper avatar, but the one I'm using will do quite fine, for now, I love the Nala kinda look, but I'm much more preferable to the Kiara type looks and lioness body type. Oh, I so do hope i wont be too much of a bother, really, due to my problems, and all mentioned??!
BIC(back in character)**Lays on my lioness side, looking and watching nervously for others to arrive, sweating quite a bit from anxiousness, trembling slightly, very nervously....hoping it will all be ok??!**